nine o three

i applied for college today and filled out another application. as long as it is part time i can handle it. i would love to have two simultaneous part time jobs, same amount of money but im not stuck in a box for 8 hours only 4. growing up sucks because with all your freedom just comes more restrictions.  with the joy of love you only find more pain. i dont know. life is constantly overwhelming, i have to force myself into a chemical induced coma about 3 times a week or i just wont make it.